Thursday, October 11, 2012

Day 37 of 40 The Last Mile (is the longest one)


Yesterday the man who’s young Labrador I may borrow if there’s a client with dogs anxiety, asked me if I could watch the dog this weekend. Unfortunately that’s impossible, a next time it will be great but now it would be madness. Lately I am thinking more and more about a new dog but to borrow one once in a while will be much wiser at the moment.
I removed the curtains of the living room in the old house last night. This day I’ve spent painting the walls in the new house’s living room white. And when I came “home” at the end of the day, it suddenly didn’t feel like home anymore, in the old house. The colors were too much and the windows too naked.  In the meanwhile, the new house doesn’t give me the comforting feeling of coming home. This made me wonder, but I’m almost sure I did experience that different eight years ago. It was very different then.
Anyway, this morning when I drove there the song of Little Talks from Of Monsters and Men blaring of the radio touched me more than ever and before I could stop them the tears were streaming down my cheeks. Can’t help it but today I feel homeless. A little like Remi from Nobody’s Boy by Hector Malot. I don't like walking around this old and empty house. So hold my hand, I'll walk with you, my dear.   

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